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ride through the rainbow in oblivion
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[13 Mar 2007|03:00pm] |
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hello hello!
did you know that i have a slightest feeling of failing event management?
did you know that i'm sitting for exams this week?
did you know that i'm left with one paper, which is tourism?
did you know that i'm about to hurl because i drank too much red bull?
i hate exams but i hope this time around, my results won't disappoint me. not that the previous round did but i could do little more with what my brain could store.
ps: and by the way, i'm moving to a new user. bye!
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| oh bloody Ibanez |
[10 Mar 2007|11:36pm] |
sorry i have to update again because i need to tell the whole world.
i can't play guitar for nuts. even if you make me, i will wash my fingers with bleach, i swear. i only do so because i have nothing better to do. unless if someone is willing to teach me (but seriously, i really can't dabble the chords at all!), and if you're tolerant enough 'cos i will make you burst into small giggles with my antics. well anyway, my dad popped in and played a few strums and just left the room.. like that.
weird.
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| hold me before i drown myself to sleep |
[10 Mar 2007|09:29pm] |
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i barely show my affection publicly, be it on my livejournal, whatever personal online accounts i have or in real life with my friends but i'm gonna say this anyway..
i miss you, when can we meet again? :(
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| your eyes watching me like a camera, really |
[08 Mar 2007|04:02pm] |
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we try climbing on the walls, we try jumping over the barriers that sealed the truth.
i don't know what is right and what is wrong.
i'm tired of seeking the truth.
enlighten me, for i don't have much time anymore.
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Azreen says, "kalau kau boring, buat questionnaire dari blog aku".
that certainly kills a lot of my idling time but i'm far too lazy.
haha!
edited: i forgot to mention this but I HAVE TO STOP BUYING BAGS! i realised i tend to waste my cash on buying bags every month without fail, causing me to go bankrupt sooner or later.
Fatin, please do not buy the Reebok bag you saw today.
.. help!
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| have a little faith |
[07 Mar 2007|03:30pm] |
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i place my faith in my heart that everything will be okay.
2007 is not a good year to start with, especially when the things you hope for starts to go downhill.
it won't stop if you work something out, but it will never stop if you have no solutions to it.
its like undergoing plastic surgery - your face gets messed up, you're deformed forever. like Micheal Jackson.
i think i'm somewhat stressed out.
on the train today, someone was reading a book on how to put your priorities first and time management.
i took a peek and from all the points stated in the book, i might be under pressure of something which i have no clue about.
but then again, cheebye! why in the world would i want to be pressurised about?
bah!
just in a short span of 3 months, 2 of my family members left the world for a better place. my grandfather and my uncle took their leave early this year, leaving their beloved family behind.
soon enough, as my parents, aunts and uncles predicted, my great grandmother will be leaving soon too.
the world will never be a better place if someone could stop this mess.
my granduncles refused to visit my great grandmother and this is what i call an example people who will never learn from their mistakes.
i didn't lead a good life, i picked up my own mess, i lead my own life as it is, i refuse to accept any sympathy from anyone else.
at this age, i wouldn't say i've grown up but i've already tasted what life is by being out there.
sigh. if i was given an option to choose what the world will be like, i would have picked a slow paced life.
now, have a little faith in yourself instead.
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| where have you been? |
[05 Mar 2007|03:49pm] |
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new layout!
colours are dull but i like it.
nothing too fancy to flaunt because i like it looking like a dull journal with no overwhelming, edited layouts or anything too posh.
hmm dull is good.
and the phrase is from a song by The Fall of Troy, because i've been listening to them.
oh, i have a burning question to ask.
why on one particular song they sound like The Blood Brothers and on the other, they sound like The Mars Volta?
have you listen to their song?
i dunno which one because i tend to listen to songs without knowing what is the title.
you ask me and all i can say, "oh the song being played is by (insert band's/singer's name here)".
i am such a late bloomer.
no wonder Imran calls me a purist for always sticking to the same music.
well, its not my fault that i only like certain genres, not including Justin Timberlake that is.
you can't put me at fault!
but then again, TFOT kicks up a hell of good music.
if you like anything angst ridden music, full of progressiveness and a shocking thrust to your ears, you might like TFOT.
heh.
and, happy 20th birthday ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) numbertwo_!
biler mau lepak?
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| bloody Singaporeans |
[04 Mar 2007|08:00pm] |
oh fuck the world!
i'm so full of profanities these few days.
i hate people who don't give a way for others to walk.
i hate it when people don't adhere to the required regulations.
i was in a super rush today for work because i'll be late if i don't do so and these very ignorant Singaporeans couldn't even read the sign that states "please give way to others, stand on the left". hello, i, myself always make a point to stand on the left side whenever i'm riding on the escalator because i'm considerate enough to respect others.
but you know what, there i was, contemplating whether to nudge my way through the crowd or just scream, "excuse fucking me, can you please stand on the left! there are others who are in a rush, damn it!".
please do not show me the face of yours even if you're using a bloody Louis Vuitton or Coach bag. you think you have so much cash that your family owns the MRT station is it?
bah!
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| snap |
[03 Mar 2007|02:55pm] |
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i'm home, after a long homerun out of nowhere, with no sense of direction, always hoping light will shine in my way.
yeah well, i'm home everyone.
my cat mewed hello.
i say hello.
we all love the "hellos" that everyone say.
anyway, for the past few months there have been a lot of firsts that i have yet to mention. personal, some small matters of anything else.
i think its good to experience firsts in your life.
its raining, and i'm catching up the times that i lacked behind.
its like a race, you see.
it pushes you to the limit, no oxygen in your system, you doing all you can to be first.
but if you slowly crumble due to a muscle pull, you fall down, you perish your energy and you lose.
now, what a pain ass kicking world we all call that.
... and i should stop listening to Hot Cross.
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| happy happy |
[14 Feb 2007|10:43am] |
haven't you heard
that i'll be online again soon, this coming March?
and this time it'll be as for long as i could go
yeay yeay this is no wanderlust!
oh oh happy V day, eventhough everyday is V day to me
unless if you're lack of love that is
but i do lack of love
and still, everyday is V day!
i'm working today, come visit me!
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| and one more! |
[06 Feb 2007|09:34am] |
let's all have some good clean fun
for i hate boys with piercings and worst still, multiple ones! and tattoos too
because you are nowhere cool
so stop hitting on me, all you fatherfucking boys on the train!
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ho ho oh merry it goes for i am not that nice thank you very much
i miss blogging and friends and me
sigh
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| would you |
[06 Feb 2007|08:31am] |
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and if were to die one day, leaving you behind with no last words
would you care to say you still love me, or even remember me as the girl that you once knew?
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| oh shut up |
[30 Jan 2007|09:36am] |
its been a few days but i'm still harbouring on it because the irrational act of yours doesn't seem to do any justice. if you're such a motherfucking blonde (but funny, you're not even blonde at all), get the fuck away. being self-centered, i swear i could just sew your gap up for trying to intimidate me with such blatant shit.
but oh wells, what do i care anyway. you don't even understand that i'm actually mocking you.
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| because because |
[19 Jan 2007|01:58pm] |
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it's kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and you say your name. and it gets to a point where none of it seems real. well, sometimes, i can do that, but i don't need an hour in front of a mirror. it just happens very fast, and things start to slip away. and i just open my eyes, and i see nothing. and then i start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but i can't. it doesn't happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me.
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| eh |
[18 Jan 2007|08:28am] |
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i have the greatest feeling that i am suffering from a disease. i don't know what is but i'm sure i am. i've been eating less than usual because food is very scarce for me these days and i've been throwing up alot. like 65467234838284242. so yeah, i'm likely to be suffering from either bulimia/aneroxia. but i'm not obsessed about my weight though. pretty much i don't care what food i eat and i've never intended to throw up what i ate but its getting tad too far, don't you think?
might be the job that robs my appetite most of the time.
i miss my fat belly that Im always pokes fun about. i'm getting skinnier by the day, my face feels so small, even my waistline is getting smaller! my skirt is so loose, if anyone pulls my skirt, i swear it can fall off anytime. my face start to feel warm at certain times, and there goes again the urge of throwing up.
i miss feeling full. i miss my old weight, man. sigh.
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[10 Jan 2007|10:45am] |
woot! i'm finally getting my hands on the internet, well finally really!
its been a hell of a ride for 2007. to kick start the year, well you can say, we turned 6th, eventhough that was before 2007. i'm slaving my time for work and during my free days, i'm sleeping like a lazy pig. its not like i care, but yeah, this is what you get when you don't have access to the internet at home.
but then again, like i said, its not like i care. but what i do care was my grandfather passed away on the 6th of January this year. a sudden blow but all we could do is to pray for his safe journey back to the Almighty.
its been three days of school. we are still, and i guess never will, be studying and slacking most of the time. i'm losing touch with my use of words (you can see that i'm raving in bad English but its not like i care). its not deliberate but i'm feeling extra lazy when the lecturers aren't teaching. i want holidays! NOW! PLEASE! bah. but on another footnote, welcome carvingself to ITE Bishan! i'm surprised to see you here in school. see ya around.
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| hello boyfriend |
[12 Dec 2006|12:24am] |
today you turned 17. finally a year older and as same as me but still you can't do much with this age. hehe.
have a good one on this very day eventhough you keep telling me that your birthday isn't that important. you turn 17 once and you should live it up yo!
happy birthday Imran. :)
p/s: i am listening to Reggaeton right now. don't ever call me a purist anymore okay? bwakaka :P
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| we'll progress with ITE, progress with ITE.. |
[28 Nov 2006|12:54am] |
you know what i like about my siblings?
how supportive all of them are.
i never had a close bond with either of them when i was young. i mean, i'm seven and five years apart with the both of them (brother and sister respectively) which kinda made me the odd one out. to see them doing this together could inject either envy or just..feeling lonely. but i think when i'm finally hit an age where they can tolerate me enough, why is it that i'm always seeing them in my room all the time?! okay just kidding, but its kinda amusing that only now i'm telling them practically everything. and anything too. and we all share the same interest too! liking of cats, same taste in music, blah blah. now i feel like i'm in par with them, in terms of mentality wise. to have a brother who is 24 and still 18 at heart and a sister who is 22 albeit the small size, its extremely cool.
anyway, the bottom line is, i love my siblings. even if they pisses me off with all the things they have done to make me upset or angry at them, i still love them to bits. what could you do without them? well, i learnt that from a family feud which i picked up yonks ago. never be stingy, never be calculative (money wise, don't ever demand your money back unless they insisting on paying you), be tolerant because they are the ones you'll rely on most of the time and always be there.
abang, kakak! korang rock la.
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on another footnote, i got a job at Vivocity which pays me more than what i've expected. i'm beginning to like school, well, the phase of hating it is over and finally, i'm proud to say i enjoy studying in ITE. Imran was right, you don't know how it feels like to study in ITE if you're not studying in one. forget the stereotyping of students who are considered a nuisance to the society. everyone around us only know how to judge and not evaluate it within themselves. i think the best time of my life would be now till the end of my education here. i've met people who are true to themselves and people who you know could be your friends throughout your whole life. its never a bad thing and it will never be, at all.
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| i want |
[17 Nov 2006|05:42am] |
hello! threadless.com is having a sale and ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) sgspree is holding a spree on it and so, anyone who is kind please buy me a t-shirt! preferably the Milk and Cookie tee. hee hee.
and this Ripcurl bag i saw at PS!
ok that's all bye!
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| knock knock, who's there? |
[07 Nov 2006|01:12am] |
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oh so like they say, i've decided to come to a conclusion to update. nothing mini so this will be a full lengthy shit of rambles, more nonsensical yet a buckload of self noting. so hello beautiful world, nothing is much more special than looking forward to a new day!
how's my celebration for Hari Raya? nothing too spectacular because most of the free hours i had was to indulge in idling or just, maybe, sleep. i couldn't be bothered to care how's everyone doing. its the same old, same old you get every year. and every year, its always the same question. repeating yourself is an effing chore and its not an important task to do so.
i'd rather drop and roll around like my cats who are the main entertainers and the conversationalists. well except that they can't talk.
okay whatever i'm crapping.
Sunday was a little too oblivious. half the time i'm playing Puzzle Bobble on my boyfriend's handphone and half the time, i'm either laughing within my own barrier. its either i've turned sullen or i'm not enjoying as much. no, you won't get it if i explained further. and don't get the wrong idea too. the gathering was nice and having to meet up your friends is a real good feeling but there's always someone lacking spirit, and that is me.
okay whatever yet again. but its nice to see a friend who store memories of us on his phone after one year. that's enchanting.
school is not cool, oh well, that's how you feel if you keep dreading the idea of going. most of my intentions for going to school is going down the drain and i have no ample desire of learning. i can love school if i want to, but right this second, i just don't.
friends come and go but i don't want my memories with my dcmws to disappear so Vivocity this Saturday? amacam you all? don't tell me ya'll lost my number because if you do, i'll shall (insert ceeteh's favourite bitchslap). just kidding but so you guys know, i miss you people!
and lastly, the relationship between me and my boyfriend is good. we enjoy everything with a little squeeze of laughter added in. a dash of love is in your life is exciting and a little thrill of riding the rollercoaster will add the punch. oh well, in a nutcase (i miss this phrase!), we're good and getting better each day.
what else? i love my siblings alot (hallo, my brother is performing on the 18th at the Substation), i love my parents to bits even if i have a love/hate relationship with them, i love my cats but most importantly, i love how we stay close to each other no matter what. i think i've tasted the unfortunate side of life and finally grown up to face the dog eat dog world. nothing comes easy and this is what i learn if you stick by your family.
but lastly, I NEED A FREAKING JOB! Ikea, please contact me or i shall hop on the 168 bus, travel all the way to Tampines and burn down your building on the 30th if you don't call me!
just kidding.
i've updated enough. i'm good and you already know it, so how are you guys anyway?
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